On Thursday (Feb. 5), got candid with Ellen Degeneres about her battle with addiction, substance abuse, and an unknown eating disorder. In July 2018, the  singer suffered from an  that was laced with the deadly fentanyl narcotic. Following her downward spiral into drug abuse, the 27-year-old singer/songwriter was unsure if she would be able to . Now, Lovato is being more transparent than ever about her journey during her most recent interview on The Ellen Show. Demi Lovato Reveals Substance Abuse Was Linked To Her Eating Disorder Kevin Winter/Getty s

According to Lovato, she and her team were constantly at odds due to their aggressive food monitoring tactics that eventually led to her abusing drugs. During the interview, Lovato revealed how her brutal her team was in regards to her eating habits, stating:

“If I was in my hotel room at night, they would take the phone out the hotel room so I couldn’t call room service, or if there was fruit in my room they took it out because that’s extra sugar. We’re not talking about brownies and cookies and candies and stuff like that, it was fruit.”

The Glee actress then went on to detail how her team members’ over-controlling tactics led to her questioning her sobriety, saying:

“So I was stuck in this unhappy position and here I am sober and I’m thinking to myself, ‘I’m six years sober but I’m miserable.'” Lovato continued, “I’m even more miserable than I was when I was drinking. Why am I sober?”

When she attempted to express how her management’s micromanagement was affecting her, she was told that she was being “selfish” and that her eating habits could potentially “ruin everything not only for herself but for all those around her.” All this aggression eventually led to Lovato relapsing on drugs and alcohol and her eventual 2018 overdose that required her to stay at Cedars Sinai Medical Center for a total two weeks. 

Now, Demi Lovato is standing tall and speaking on the experiences that have allowed her to display a level resilience rarely seen in the music industry. Check out the videos Demi Lovato detailing how her eating disorder led her down a dark path substance abuse and addiction in the video provided below.