It has been 10 months since the ending Game Thrones, and now that the disappointment is behind us, the  are willing to open up about how it ended. Emilia Clarke, who played the “Mother Dragons” Daenerys Targaryan, shared her feelings in an interview with the UK’s Sunday Times.

Even in the earliest stages production, Clarke was considering how fans the show would perceive the ending and anticipated them to react the way they did. 

“When the show did end, it was like coming out a bunker. Everything felt really strange. Then obviously for it to have the backlash it did …” she said. “I knew how I felt when I first read it, and I tried, at every turn, not to consider too much what other people might say, but I did always consider what the fans might think — because we did it for them, and they were the ones who made us successful, so … it’s just polite, isn’t it?” 

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She was even asked about the fallout her character, seemingly disappointed she shared, “Yeah, I felt for her. I really felt for her. And was I annoyed that Jon Snow didn’t have to deal with something? He got away with murder — literally,” she exclaimed. 

Even several months later, stars the show just as bitter as the fans.